Hello friends. Today I wanna cover a pretty heavy topic. Grief is a tricky thing that is unique to every individual. My Pepaw passed away about a week ago. I bawled my eyes out the first day, but I haven’t really cried that much since. Although I have these waves of unwavering sadness. I just wanna crawl into my bed and sleep forever.
Grief is different for everyone. Some people laugh, most people cry, and others aka me get bad waves of depression. These waves come at different times during the day. I usually just get into my bed and sleep because that’s really the only thing I can do. The naps are great though. The only downside is that I've been forgetting to eat, and I've lost some of my appetite. This usually happens when I'm under major stress which is about 60% of my life, BUT STILL! I love food. Grief comes in all shapes and sizes. It is also a force to be reckoned with. Grief can consume your life if you allow it to. I’ve seen and heard stories of that happening. It’s a huge burden on a person.
I don't know else to say about this subject. I guess it's still early in the grieving process. I think that's it for now. I'll see you guys later.
Hello friends! So summer is officially here, and I am so happy about it! About two weeks ago I graduated from high school. It was very bitter sweet. Mainly bitter, but slightly sweet. I was a complete basket case the night of and the days following graduation. I was on the verge of tears every five seconds, and I had zero energy. I had heard of people becoming like this after graduating, but I never thought I would be one of them. I completely disliked school, but most of my friends are underclassmen and teachers.
One of the biggest things that I’m nervous about is my friends at home. I already have friends and family where I’m going, but my closest friends are pretty much all in Nashville. I have a list of people that I wanna hang out with before I leave, but I’m already gonna be really busy this summer so we’ll see.
This summer I am working on getting my stuff ready for moving into my dorm, school, and the next chapter in my life. I have already collected a bunch of stuff for my dorm, but I still have to buy more. Right now I’m focusing on relaxing and doing stuff that I want to do. I have to learn more about sight reading on the piano and music theory. I’m actually excited to learn about that cause I love music and I love my major and I am really excited about uni.
That’s pretty much it for now. I will talk to you guys soon!
I will call them my people, who were not my people; and her beloved, who was not beloved. -Romans 9:25
by Noelle Janae