Hello friends. Today I wanna cover a pretty heavy topic. Grief is a tricky thing that is unique to every individual. My Pepaw passed away about a week ago. I bawled my eyes out the first day, but I haven’t really cried that much since. Although I have these waves of unwavering sadness. I just wanna crawl into my bed and sleep forever.
Grief is different for everyone. Some people laugh, most people cry, and others aka me get bad waves of depression. These waves come at different times during the day. I usually just get into my bed and sleep because that’s really the only thing I can do. The naps are great though. The only downside is that I've been forgetting to eat, and I've lost some of my appetite. This usually happens when I'm under major stress which is about 60% of my life, BUT STILL! I love food. Grief comes in all shapes and sizes. It is also a force to be reckoned with. Grief can consume your life if you allow it to. I’ve seen and heard stories of that happening. It’s a huge burden on a person.
I don't know else to say about this subject. I guess it's still early in the grieving process. I think that's it for now. I'll see you guys later.
Hello friends! So summer is officially here, and I am so happy about it! About two weeks ago I graduated from high school. It was very bitter sweet. Mainly bitter, but slightly sweet. I was a complete basket case the night of and the days following graduation. I was on the verge of tears every five seconds, and I had zero energy. I had heard of people becoming like this after graduating, but I never thought I would be one of them. I completely disliked school, but most of my friends are underclassmen and teachers.
One of the biggest things that I’m nervous about is my friends at home. I already have friends and family where I’m going, but my closest friends are pretty much all in Nashville. I have a list of people that I wanna hang out with before I leave, but I’m already gonna be really busy this summer so we’ll see.
This summer I am working on getting my stuff ready for moving into my dorm, school, and the next chapter in my life. I have already collected a bunch of stuff for my dorm, but I still have to buy more. Right now I’m focusing on relaxing and doing stuff that I want to do. I have to learn more about sight reading on the piano and music theory. I’m actually excited to learn about that cause I love music and I love my major and I am really excited about uni.
That’s pretty much it for now. I will talk to you guys soon!
Recently I have been in a huge slump. I haven’t been productive, my grades have kind of slipped but I am already redeeming myself, I have been SUPER stressed over everything, and I have been sick recently. This slump has happened to me before, but not this bad. At the beginning of this semester I promised myself that I would not let senioritis control me and that I would be productive till the very end. Well that was a fat lie to myself. Throughout my life I have always a hard time admitting that I’m not actually ok. Whenever I’m sick during an important part of the school year then I try to convince myself that I can just push through and it’ll turn out alright, but what ends up happening is I end up sicker and longer than I originally would have been. It’s a vicious and unhealthy cycle that I can’t seem to stop.
So how do I get out of this slump? I actually don’t really know. Life is full of the phrase “Fake it till you make it!”, so that’s exactly what I’m going to do. I’m gonna fake being ok until I am actually ok. I don’t mean this is a negative way. I’m not gonna become a hermit and I’m not gonna build a wall, but I’m gonna smile even when I don’t feel like smiling. I’m gonna plan what I’m gonna do cause that’s the only way I get things done.
A couple of YouTube channels that I’ve been watching for help on productivity and getting out of slumps are Lavendaire and Rowena Tsai. They are my two favorite YouTube channels and I love them SO MUCH!!! I literally just binge their videos when I need inspiration and motivation. I highly recommend them!
That’s it for this week guys. Have a great day and week! Goodbye!!!
Hello people!! Today is a pretty hefty topic that everyone has to deal with. Senioritis is a VERY real thing, and I am currently living it. I have a little more than a month left till graduation, and I AM SO DONE WITH SCHOOL! I’m ready to leave and never return, but I can’t. I have to push through and toughen up. I would like to think that I have my life together, but I actually don’t. My room is messy, my health is not that great, and my relationship with myself and friends is not the best. I have become a hermit in my mind, which is not the best. I’ve found it hard to function without Dunkin on the daily (yes I am serious, it’s a problem).
I told myself today, as I was sitting on the choir room floor playing PUBG, that I was gonna get out of this funk and that I WILL BE PRODUCTIVE! So this is where I’m starting by blogging. Look forward to my journey of coming out of senioritis funk cause it’ll be a long one. I believe that there is a light at the end of this tunnel and that it's coming up soon. See yall later!!
Hello people of the interwebs! Today I am talking about my FAVORITE online store, Brandless. My mother actually ordered from them first and when our stuff came in I was HOOKED! All their stuff is $3 and shipping is $5! That's a great price for how good their products are. The first thing I tried was their deodorant (I think?). It's lavender scented and I love it! They also have food, which is vegan, mostly if not all gluten free, and they taste SO GOOD!
Here are some things I recommend:
1. Blue Corn Tortilla Chips
2. Cinnamon Glazed Almonds
3. Daily Facial Lotion
4. Glass Cleaner
5. Women's Multi-Vitamin
7. Peppermint Mouthwash
All of these things are AMAZING! I highly recommend these things, and I can't wait to buy more things from them. Have a great day everyone!
PS: I also made a video unboxing Brandless stuff.
Hey guys!! Today I bring you my top 5 TV Shows!! I'm not much of a TV watcher but I do have a little list of shows that I love dearly. Also all of these are on Netflix. Here we go….
HELLO PEOPLE! Today is my 18th birthday! I am an official adult, so I thought that I would give you some lessons I've learned in my 18 years of life. Ok? Let's get this BREAD!
If you get to know me well you will learn that I like to appear as a child-like person, which I am, but I can be very serious and I understand a lot. When I was born/a baby it was spoken over me that I would have great understanding. I know, have experienced, and understood more than an average teenager. I am very thankful for that and for the positive influences in my life. I am also thankful for the negative ones because they have taught me some of the best lessons in my life. Now I will go and celebrate being an adult by doing nothing. Have a great day!
HAPPY 2019!! The year went by so fast! The past few days I have been working on a project for myself. It's called a vision board. You take a poster board or foam board and cut out pictures from magazines that go with what your resolutions are. So here are my 2019 Resolutions!
Hey guys! Sorry I’ve been inactive. School has been kicking my butt, but I’ve been doing something that I’ve found is really good for me. That thing is listening to podcasts! I love listening to podcasts in the morning, driving to school and just listening to them throughout the day. With the year coming to the end I’ve been focusing a lot on myself and getting my life back on track. I don’t always have time to read, which is one of my ways to learn new things or learn more about myself, but with podcasts I can turn one on and do housework or homework. Their are podcasts for pretty much everything which is really great. I listen to my podcasts on Apple Podcasts.
I’ve also been really into simplifying my life, which will probably be another blog post. For me, simplifying my life makes more space in my mind to learn new things. Look forward to a blog post about simplifying.
Now here are some of my favorite podcasts!
-The Lavendaire Lifestyle: I’ve been following Aileen for a couple of years now on YouTube. She makes amazing videos and I love the topics on her podcast. My favorite episodes are the minimalism episode and the healthy eating episode.
-Pretty Basic: This is a brand new podcast from two of my all time favorite YouTubers, Alisha Marie and Remi Cruz. They talk about boy drama, health, and the business behind YouTube. The business side of YouTube is very interesting.
- Coffee and Honeycomb: The first season of this podcast is very good. Now this podcast is a Christian one and Jenny Park brings on guests to talk about life and being a Christian in this society. I’ve been following Jenny on Instagram for about a year and I was so excited when this podcast came out.
-The Mindful Kind: Now I’ve just discovered this podcast. I haven’t listened to it a lot, but from the few episodes I’ve listened to it’s really good. It focuses on living intentionally and being mindful of yourself. And it’s in little 10 minute episode so it’s perfect if you’re in a rush.
-Ted Talks Daily: Now I love a good Ted Talk. It gives good advice if you listen to the right one. My favorite episode right now is “There’s more to life than being happy” from Emily Esfahani Smith. It’s really interesting and I really like it.
-Elevation Church and Transformation Church: Now this is perfect for me to listen to sermons throughout the day at school. I can just plug in my headphones and listen to a sermon. It’s really convenient
I’m still looking for podcasts to listen too. So if you have suggestions then comment below. Have a great day peeps!
I will call them my people, who were not my people; and her beloved, who was not beloved. -Romans 9:25
by Noelle Janae